The musicianship fascinates me in that way, that we are able to evoke emotions in our audience, to tell stories that language could not tell and to really create something beautiful. I think it is important to me because I feel like that’s why I became a musician: To express myself and letting the audience be part of that experience. I really wanted to be able to express myself on a technical level and on a musical level. As a musician nowadays, it is a challenge to make your art sound in society. There are so many fears and worries that people forget the value of music, and its important influence it has on us humans. Therefore, I think it is especially the younger generation's responsibility to keep, especially classical music, alive and interesting for all the people.
Seeing myself in that position, I think I could promote what I am creating and doing more. Not in a business kind of way but more so in the way of sharing music, making music and just living music. I feel like I do a good job, and I am striving to be the better version of myself. Where this all will end and if I will be able to achieve my own goals, we shall see in the future. But for now I see myself enjoying the musical life, hopefully in an orchestra or orchestral academy and to create music with wonderful people and raising awareness of the importance of classical music in our culture. But as I said in 5 years a lot can happen, so we will see where I will end up.
Learned during the studies
I think the most valuable thing I learned is to realize that everyone goes their own way. That may sound abstract, but as a developing musician you can't avoid comparing yourself to your colleagues to a certain extent since you all strive towards the same goal. Therefore, realizing that everyone has their own stuff that they carry around with them, coming from different backgrounds and cultures, makes you realize that there's not "the one way" that will lead you towards "success" because everyone is unique in their skills and working habits. Therefore, it was really important for me to accept that everything I do is the right way because it is not someone else's way but my own, which leads to less self-doubt and being proud of yourself, always being able to reflect where you came from and what you've achieved so far.
The effect of classical music on emotions
In this research I am very interested to find out where the connection between music and emotions may come from, how music evokes emotional reactions and what we can learn from that information as listeners and performers.